Does anyone else have any more hugs to offer? Today is officially my last day at my awesome placement and with my special pal. I feel so blessed to have this opportunity to be with this teacher and her student this semester at this time. I have learned so much as a person and preparing to become the teacher that I can’t wait to become. Not everything I learned was positive, I also learned more about my weaknesses going into the education field and I am so lucky to have found this now than later. Some days I just wonder what’s so hard about teaching, I can’t wait to be a student teacher and be on my way but then on other days, my placement just reminds me of how unprepared I am. Learning more about me and about the field itself was wonderful but one of my favorite things about having our placements is the luck of making connections and building relationships with the students and teachers.
I was really lucky because I had an awesome placement teacher and a great group of students in the classroom that I volunteered in. I not only was able to learn all their names but I was also able to work with every single one of them at least twice and they know me too!! I feel horrible because every time I walk in the class, the students would give me stares or say “hi Mai Kou” and I happen to always be walking in the middle of a lesson too, which makes it worse. They’re such happy kids and they’re just so full of life. They would absolutely brighten and better our society and future if we really get them to see school and life the way they do now. Seeing them makes me long for the day in which I get to spend eight hours, five days a week with my own set of students. Anyways, so I told a few students that this would be my last week and they thought I was just kidding, but then I wasn’t. So I brought them baked cookies that I made with all my heart, candies, and cards for them today and as I was leaving, I just had to let it out knowing that I will be placed at a different site next semester. How does a teacher do that? How can you say bye to a set of kids every year! UGH!!! I can’t and I don’t want to! I’m so selfish I know but it’s so hard because they’re my friends now. I know all that they like to do, I played hide and seek, soccer, basketball with them. I watched some of them cried before, laughed with them, did math, read with them, built atoms, ran, took a few to the nurse’s office, we did so much together.
Today I couldn’t concentrate in the class assignments today knowing that today I have to seal the cap. My special pal was so sad and I can’t help it. I know someone else will go back for him next semester. He has grown so much and I know he will be just awesome without me!What made it much harder was the teacher told the student that it was my last day and she had me sit at the front while the students all raised their hands to thank me for the little things that I do during my time there that they appreciated. It was so sweet to hear so much compliment, but most to hear some very shy student speak especially on the littlest things I do that I didn’t think anyone would notice or remember. :( . Kids are definitely my passion and teaching them is my goal.
I was given so much hugs and I gave away so many as well. I don’t even think I am allowed to, but I couldn’t help it I just feel like I had to. Room 29, I will miss you all! Hopefully time will permit for me to go back and visit, though it may not feel the same anymore. I hope I can go back and volunteer there again. May the best come to the students and my placement teacher! I hope everyone else in my cohort had a great and fun experience as well.