HOW I FEEL ABOUT MY PLACEMENT: NEG’s, POS’s, and IMPACTS
First Reflective Posting
Going into my placement has been one interesting experience. I really enjoy the teacher, getting to know many other aids, and best, getting to know the students, although I feel like it is all very challenging. I’ve been to my placement three times and each time I have gotten the chance to observe and also help out the students but I don’t think I have really impact them in any realistic way yet. I probably won’t because I may only serve 15 hours there overall. With that said though, I will try my best to go in as open minded as possible and I am hoping that I will be a positive influence to at least one of them. The purpose of my service is to really go in and help these students learn, help them believe in themselves, and encourage them to the best of their ability. But being with them will give me more experience in becoming a teacher and let me decide if it is a possible path that I may want to focus my teaching on.
I’ve never really had the chance to be around anyone who has a disability to the point where I can totally understand their difficulties. From what I have learn in my psych class about syndromes and specific misplace of loss in a chromosome that can lead to a disability or a malfunction child is just so disappointing, sad, and it frustrates me. What made mad were the babies who are born with FAS. And this is because it is a preventable syndrome and just from the mother drinking alcohol can cause the life of a child. So going with this just makes it a little hard to see what so little can do to these precious students. With very small background knowledge of disabilities, I think it will create a barrier for me to try to connect with these awesome kids. However, I think I am a pretty positive person and being around kids and teaching is what I want to do so I hope that I may be able to get that across somehow. I feel like it’s not always the best thing, but I am more focused on the child socially than I am with them educationally. So when I go in, my goal is to help them with their math and sentence writing but I also add in some jokes or a personal thing about my struggle. I like to see them laugh and also know that I care for them. I like to give hug (although I’m not sure if the state even allows that anymore) and just check up on them. My main goal before I finish my hours is to learn all their names and have them find/share a strength/talent that they have.